Veiled

I seem to be behind a continuous fog, hardly thinning, never clearing. Footpaths are blurred images that I am wary of treading on, is the ground secure, does it lead to my destination?

I sit, confused, sounds are muffled.

Twelve months left to decide.

Wishes

I'm slowly working my way around the blogs with Christmas wishes , but for those with no blog page :



Wishing you a Christmas full of fun and laughter, warm in the bosom of loved ones, cloaked in peace, joy and hope. May all your dreams come true.

Love always, Alison x

3 is a magic number

So did the 3x rule work? Go on do it, I double dare you!

Honesty

I trawl around the blogs quite regularly and see the beautiful emotions laid bare in front of me. How do they do that? How do they put down what they are feeling? Is it cathartic ? Does it hurt ?

Gnothi Seauton = Know thyself.

I do know myself, I'm just too many people to keep tabs on though.

Hornblower

So many conflicting episodes lately. Dearest Mayo alludes to many outcomes, it feels as if the fog may soon be clearing and yet the anons muddy up the waters again and again.

The truth will out eventually, yet I am more curious as to when you are going to reveal the identity of our compatriot.
Because quite frankly I don't understand that charade at all.

?

Why do you do that? It makes no sense. I wish you were straight with everyone.

Where do you go to...

... my lovely?

So here we are...

... at an impasse. Where to go from here. Polite, aware, re-composed. But the silence is thunderous.
I feel no pain, I am not hurt. No trust was lost.
Clear the air, tell it all.
Clear the air, tell it all.
Clear the air, tell it all.

Untitled

Every move you make screams look at me. Well guess what, I am looking and I don't understand what I see.

Or maybe I do.

Up or Down

I really truly don't know if I am coming or going now. After that bizarre conversation with the anon about Andy I have multiple theories running through my brain, and I confess 1 of them is not good.

Just pick me up on your next circuit my dear crazy train.

Here we go again...

I thought these feelings had subdued, I was happy just pottering along in this alternate universe, why go and mess it all up!

Please tell me this is just imaginations running wild, don't make me start worryng again!

I lived with this for 8 years , I still get this when his life is going wrong, now I'm getting it from you!!

God, you remind me of him so much :\

It won't delete!

Ignore me I'm an idiot, I have the memory span of a goldfish and posted twice.

Medical issues?

You didn't waste any time!

Medical issues?

You didn't waste any time.

Melancholia

The last few days I have been decidedly out of sorts, uneasy, unsettled and generally annoyed with the world.

I made a move to approach which I thought made no impact but now I am unsure. The title could indicate a direct message , especially with the way it is worded, but that could be my febrile mind seeing things I want to see. But I have seen this wording before , where is it from ?

I could be in a position of power if the missive could be corroborated but he would never admit to that, he would lose too much.

I am in a quandry.

Used ?

I posted something similar to this a while ago but deleted it. My thoughts have returned though.

Could this be exactly as planned, a way of ridding the teenies from the scene by bringing on tour a lyrically opposed band who they or their parents would object to.

I feel also that Lyn could be a pawn in the game of life. I hope when it all comes crashing down that the jackals don't get to her, I'm sure she doesn't deserve the wrath of the ' fans '.

SS is a minx.

If you were SS and if SS is who we think he is can I just say how utterly adorable you are.

The Black Parade

You know, I've been listening to it more lately and I thought of something odd.

If you listen to it as an autobiography of Gerard's life from his Grandma's death onwards it all makes perfect sense.

You see, Teenagers never made any sense chronologically to me with regards to the patient but if you think about it with regards to his life it fits time wise.

I have very bad feelings about how things are going to pan out in the future.

Such a shame

I have never been under any illusions that Gerard Way was completely sober, just that he had cut down some. Verification - Kerrang awards 2005- he is seen toasting their successes with what looks suspiciously like a bottle of beer, SURS interview with Steven- summer 2005- he is definitely stoned during the questioning about Marilyn Manson.

How he chooses to live his life is up to him, but he seriously is coming to pieces physically, emotionally and probably mentally. He needs Mikey and Bert, especially Bert, who is the one person who won't put up with his bull.

I just hope he comes to his senses before it's too late.